losing a soul mate

They say today is the first day of the rest of your life...I am not sure how I feel about that right now. To me each new day is just one more day of my past that does not really matter. Today??? What will I make of it, it seems the longer I am without her I would get less lonly but that seems to not be the case. I sem to be alone more now. With their actions and not to hurt me people seem to be slowly letting me go. Like hey it has been 2 months you seem fine. I know that I seem that way but on the inside I am as sad and lonely as the day she left. This is the crazy part I know if I were to ask someone would be here, but to what purpose, I think it is going to be in me if I do decide that yes I am going to look for what I want. In my heart I want what I lost, but I have no clue if I have the energy to even look for it.

I love my dog and cat. About my dog, he is an old man. Working on 13 years-old. He is a minpin. He does not know this though, in his bark and attitude he is a Doberman.