losing a soul mate

Almost 2 years, does not seem possible. I am in a commited relationship. I don't know how I luck into finding good people but I do.

Now thinking about Susie I have been a little bit sad the last few weeks at times thinking about my past but with that said I do have much to be thankful for. I know that we all have to go on with our lives and I know that Susie if she could talk to me would tell me to live my life and be happy. It is strange how my memories now seem to make me smile more often than not. I do still have an occasional thought or memory where it feels like I was punched in the stomache. It is strange when it happens though it is not when I take susie flowers but may be when someone ask something off the wall and I have a thought go through my mind about how Susie would of thought about that particular thought. Well it has been forever since I blogged but I thought about this today so here is another blog.