losing a soul mate

I went to see a movie this weekend, I cried like a baby (not an exaggeration). The movie was “the family stone” with Claire Danes, Diane Keaton, Rachel McAdams, Dermot Mulroney and Sara Jessica parker. The mom Diane Keaton had breast cancer and dies. But before that in the movie she is in bed with her husband and she grabs his hand and pulls it toward her chest and you see her scar and that is how you found out she has breast cancer. This scene brought on 2 thoughts of emotion for me the first as she was talking and worrying about what would happen to the ones she loves was Susie through and through but that one I deal with all the time. The other emotion came from the intimacy of her grabbing his hand and pulling it to her breast (he was also reaching for her). This made me think of Susie in the most intimate way (it was like someone else feeling something I thought was only in me). Susie always worried about me, my needs and desires. Also, at times she needed reassurance of her desirability. She never asked for this, but I tried and hope conveyed to her that I loved her and found her beautiful inside and out. This scene is of two people sharing something that is special. Not everyone gets to, in this life, share a moment like this. Susie and I shared several moments like that, I am thankful for those. But watching that on the movie brought them back and made me wish for just one more moment with her like that, but that’s one wish I will never get. So I cried my tears and told myself to be thankful that I was the one chosen to share moments like that with her. I have been blessed and need to be thankful for what I have and have had; instead of worrying about what I lost or didn’t have.

So anyway this movie was prety good, in places the plot is not completly beleivable but the acting is great and the emotions it brings out of losing someone you love would get 2 thumbs up from me. Blessing to you all and I wish you a Merry Christmas kevin